Hello, 2020.

This time of year usually warrants a period of reflection, and naturally following, disappointment (as well as pride, but, let’s be real– more often than not, it’s the former). Unresolved resolutions. Unaccounted for broken hearts. The pain of searing loss. Sometimes these things erase in our minds the significance of all the good. The wave […]

Rainbows Are Overrated: My Anxiety Abroad.

Usually, I wait until a situation or hardship has passed for me to write about it. Not because I think I will never have to experience the same hardship again, or that since I have gone through something that I suddenly know all about how to tackle the situation. Truthfully, it’s because it is so […]

how i became inspired by the very thing i despised the most

I’ve always hated running. I know that sounds a little ridiculous coming from a former soccer player and the writer of a health & fitness blog, but hear me out. Running is largely a mental sport– as long as you can convince yourself that you’re doing fine and you can keep going, you can for […]

Working Hard in a World That Tells You You Will Never Be Good Enough.

As an Asian American woman growing up in an inadvertently racist and sexist community (sometimes incredibly vertent, a word I learned on The Bold Type), I feel like I know a little something about working a little harder than others. Particularly, in this era of “Trump America”. Not every authority figure will view me in the […]

Finding Worth

Where do you find your worth? Everybody has a different idea of self-esteem, accomplishment, and worth. As someone who consistently struggles with depression, anxiety, and overall stress as someone trying to make it in life, these three are usually working against each other. I consider myself to be a goal-oriented person with insufficient motivation. I […]

why are lifelong friends so rare?

True friends are few and far between. The other day, I had a stimulating conversation with a friend (hi Gaurav) that still has me thinking. I started with this quote because this conversation has me thinking about my now difficulty in making close friends, and why I’ve had such few friends who have lasted years […]

why i wake up early

7am: post 7 hour sleep + Glow Recipe watermelon face mask + rising sun= glowy selfies My ideal morning would be to wake up at 6:30 am, make myself a cup of warm lemon tea and some oatmeal while doing my morning devotionals, go to the gym, then have time to get coffee before my […]

Stop Exercising– Start Training.

It’s January, and a lot of people are probably thinking that they need to start getting to the gym this year. I was in that exact place two years ago. And actually, up until a little less than a year ago, going to the gym meant getting toned, but definitely not buff. And it’s the […]

6 Poems About What I’ve Learned This Year

where would I be without a mother who without hesitation only ate half her plate to bring home leftovers for me who never told me the diminishing space between my thighs was taking up too much space who never left my side in the darkest times even when I told her I wanted her to […]

Me Against Food: Finding Freedom

“You’re only 5’1″ and you weigh more than her.” “Your legs are too big. You won’t look good in those shorts.” “You better run off that food today.” Every. Single. Day. These were the thoughts that wholly consumed my being. Saying these things to anybody else was something that I could never even imagine doing. […]